Baffling Fakeness

This isn't restricted to religious and non-religious. This is just something that baffles the shit out of me.

Seriously, this has bothered me for years and maybe it's just me. I am a loner. I recently tried going out and being a part of things again, but I'm not a drinker, don't use drugs and genrally am not amused by the same things as most people. What appeals to me is the more intellectual pursuits and I am a big fan of actually getting to know people instead of being a surface type who plays drinking games or tells the same lame joke over and over.

I just don't get fake people. Even now, I hear who the sleazy slutty backstabbers are. I hear how evil certain people are and see people I know being laughed at behind their backs. On the weekend, they become a big group hanging out and partying like they're best friends. That's a serious bullshit move.

If I talk to you, that means I like you. I find you worthwhile to talk to. That means I am not slamming the shit out of you when you leave the lunch room table. If you ask me if I said something, I will actually give you an honest answer. If I think a friend of mine is being a whore, I'll tell her to her face. I will also tell a man whore to his face since whores are equal in my mind. I don't believe men are studs and women are sluts. It can't work that way. Women enjoy sex, which doesn't make them sluts. Sorry people.

I have friends I really care about right now. I don't hang out with them on the weekend simply because I have a family to take care of and I can't be out carousing when I know my kids need to be tucked in at night. It just doesn't work.

So, I don't know what to do other than shut up and stay out of any of it. It's caused me to stop talking to pretty near everyone at work. The more I talked to them, the uglier the rumors got. I heard stuff I didn't need to know, third hand information that may or may not be true. FSM knows guys lie about getting laid and I am pretty sure women do, too. People lie to make other people look bad out of jealousy and their own self-image issues. I know this is happening and I am staying out of it.

For me it just sucks because the few people I really want to hang out with I can't. I know I would have a good time one on one with them, but since most are female and I'm not single, this could appear to be dating outside of my accepted parameters and then I am just making the gossip worse. I've been a victim myself of vicious gossip at work that was 100% not true, some of which actually caused me to change jobs. My reputation was just trashed. I hate watching it happen to others and it's one of the many things that make me wonder what the hell people are thinking since many of them are apparently religious and all.

No, I know. Religious folk aren't known for keeping their noses out of the business of others. It would just be nice if they pretended to folow the morals they try to bestow on the "sluts" and "whores" around them.

I don't know how much longer I can stay quiet. One friend of mine gets trashed A LOT behind their back and it's not my place to say anything since that gets me dragged into it. It's not my fight. I have bills to pay, food to buy and kids to raise. It just ruins some of my days at work and even affects my Facebook experience when I see someone cuddling for a cute picture with someone after telling me horrible things about them. That's some nasty fucking hypocrisy and I have NEVER done it. As a rule, if I don't like someone, I don't speak to them. That's it. Pretty fucking simple in my mind. Be up front, don't backstab and talk to people you actually like.

As I said in the beginning, if I talk to you, I like you. If a person is on my Facebook friends list, I like them. I respect them. When nasty rumors affect that respect, it makes me sick to my stomach a little. *sigh* I just feel discouraged.

Oh, and if anyone sees this and asks me about what rumors are said and about who, I won't elaborate. I have vented and I am staying the hell OUT of it. My only advice is to be careful how open you are with people you're not certain won't stab you in the back. I trust the woman I have loved for ten years, my two awesomest friends from Stream and a few people at my current job. That's it. See what I did there? I didn't even give names of those friends. I'm stealthy as Bruce Wayne I tells ya!